Thank you 2010!!!

What a year 2010 has been for me. I have truly leaned on the Lord and trusted in him fully. He required me to get out of my comfort zone and required me to make some hard choices.

I had to leave some "friends" behind, I changed where I lived, I moved into a new home, I had to change where I worshiped, received many offers for my business, all of these decisions where hard, but I trusted in what the Lord was doing in my life and followed his direction. Because of this my life has prospered in so many ways.

As I move into 2011, it will be my time to move into the manifestation of the promise God has given me. I am ready and so excited and what he has planned.

I chose this picture because it shows how I feel, it is as if God shined down his light just for me and I grew into a beautiful flower.

In 2010 I laid the foundation, so in 2011 watch me be victorious!!!!

T.O.U.C.H. 52:11 Inc website

T.O.U.C.H. 52:11 Inc WEBSITE IS UP AND RUNNING!!!!

I'm excited to announce my website www.touch5211inc.org this website is dedicated to all of those individuals who need encouragement, motivation and education.

Take time and explore the website and feel free to leave a comment so that we can assist you with achieving Lifestyle Living.

T.O.U.C.H. 52:11 Inc. website is also announcing our Lifestyle Living contest. The winner received free consultations from myself. Please refer to the website for all of the details.

Thank you for all your support and in 2011 T.O.U.C.H. 52:11 Inc will continue to provide you inspiration, education and dedication.

Let's turn the page!!!

As we close out 2010 and enter 2011, don't be afraid to let go and begin to look at what is ahead for you. Begin to plan your wildest dreams for yourself in 2011. All of the things that you want to do, plan to do and may be scared to do, push yourself towards it.

Think outside of the box, become creative and let yourself move mountains. 2011 should already be here in your thought process, dream those impossible dreams and go for it.

GO AHEAD AND LIFT THE PAGE!!!!!!

My mom and son

Today was alot of fun, Malcolm and I met with my mom and had lunch. This of course thrilled Malcolm because he "loves" his Nano. We always laugh alot, smile alot and have a great time. We decided to go to Olive Garden and the food was so good. It took me back years when I use to love the Olive Garden because I would eat so much (especially the bread). But now I can eat only a little of the salad and the meal itself. After lunch of course my stomach hurt, I didn't get to finish all of my meal (but I never do) but meals are no longer what they use to be. I use them more as an opportunity to talk and socialize. Not come just to eat because I don't enjoy it like I once did. Because of my surgery (gastric bypass) the food no longer becomes enjoyable it's just what you have to do to live. It was a great day and nothing was better than seeing my mom with my son (who at the age of 10 is just as tall as my mom).

If you haven't spent time with family do so soon!!!

Christmas 2010

Christmas was wonderful this year. It was good to be with family and friends. I felt comfortable and energetic while playing with my niece, nephew and son. I loved wearing my jeans as well as my form fitting shirt. For many this would be no big deal but for me the girl that once weighed 450 pounds I felt like everybody else. And for someone who suffered from morbidly obesity it was great.

Many ask me what it is like to loose over 200 pounds. The only way I can explain it is to section it off in experiences. Whether it's wanting to take pictures, wearing jeans,putting on my seatbelt, playing on the floor with my son, that's the beauty of loosing the weight, not just loosing the weight itself.

Christmas 2010 felt great and was fullfilling!!!

Malcolm's Christmas

What a wonderful Christmas we had. About 2 years ago I made the decision that Malcolm could have no more than 4 gifts for Christmas so that he could understand Christmas isn't about him but about Christ. So Santa bought him a wrestling belt, Tex deck skate boards, a skate pool, PSP and 3 games (I know it's over 4) but he did really well this year.

He was so excited and appreciated everything. We began the morning with thanking GOD for his ultimate gift, his son. We blessed him for all of the many blessings he has given us this year and we had a wonderful day. It was great and exciting for him.

Merry Christmas!!!

Gingerbread house

For Christmas my son decided he wanted to create a gingerbread house. I thought well how hard could it be? IT WAS EXHAUSTING!! It was so much work we had no idea what we were doing but the most important thing was that we bonded. We worked together and the house came out great.

As always I think back to my old life while we were working. I had the energy to help him, we did everything on the floor, my patience was there and we had fun.

Something like this may be ordinary for someone else but for me I think how wonderful God is for allowing me to be healthy enough to share this time with my son.

FREEDOM PARTY!!!

I decided to have a Freedom Party to celebrate the ability to make it through 11 1/2 years of a very hard marriage. It was wonderful being with friends who understood my need to celebrate not that my divorce was finally completed but that I survived through everything. The 200 pound weight gain, abuse, lost of homes, cars, jobs, self esteem etc. There were times I didn't think I would make it out with my sanity but I did. There were people I invited but they didn't come because they thought I was celebrating divorce but I wasn't I was celebrating my strength and wisdom to move forward with my life.

So I want to thank my friends who came, encouraged me and helped me celebrate the wonderful direction God is taking in my life. There were many issues I needed to resolve and close out in 2010 and I did so.

I'm ready for 2011 and my NEW BEGINNING!!!

Remember Frosty?

OHHH Frosty the snowman..... Remember the feeling you had as a child at Christmas, the wonderment, the love, fun, excitement, joy? What has happen to that feeling?

Times have changed since we were kids, we are rushing to and from work, staying later hours, sitting in traffic, dealing with stress, helping the kids with homework etc. we often miss the beauty of the season. Are you noticing the homes that have beautiful lights on them?, do you see the pretty Christmas trees that sit in the windows of homes?, are you noticing the Christmas music on the radio?

If you have said no to these, make sure you stop and think back to your childhood and how good this time of year felt to you and embrace it. Enjoy the fact that more people will be happier this time of the year, the music is uplifting, and we want to give more.

I know things are difficult, the economy is affecting everyone but YOU CAN MAKE THE DECISION TO BE HAPPY it's up to you......Make the best choice.

T.O.U.C.H. 52:11 Inc. is the winner!!!

I'M SO EXCITED!!!! T.O.U.C.H. 52:11 Inc. IS THE WINNER OF THE INFINITE DESIGN WEBSITE CONTEST!!!!! Once again God is truly blessing my business. I entered T.O.U.C.H. 52:11 Inc. in the contest for a free website. I wrote why my business deserved to be the winner of the website and my business was chosen!!!

This website will take my business to new levels. Many of my clients and the clients I would like to work with have a life that exist mostly on the Internet. They are individuals who aren't able to go out and work every day because of their weight. They have no friends and very little family that helps them. I want to be that contact that they can turn to who understands their hurt and pain.

This site will also be the avenue for my business to continue with our Life Skill training classes that I have for teens. The classes conducted include finances, self esteem, how to have good study habits, leadership, and depression just to name a few. T.O.U.C.H. 52:11 Inc. has conducted these classes for Henry, Clayton and Fayette GA counties as well as, in Columbus GA. Two weeks ago I completed the South GA youth summit in Macon, Ga in which I spoke to 200 youth. We have many more seminar's and summits beginning in January 2011!!

I am ready for the territory the Lord is allowing me to enter into!!!

The joy of allowing myself to "feel"

There is nothing like the feeling of true happiness, joy and peace. There are so many wonderful opportunities coming my way for my business that I'm so excited!!

I just wanted to speak today on the joy of truly allowing myself to "feel". Having suffered from obesity my entire life I learned how not to feel anything so that I could survive. Whether it was pain, hurt, and sorrow I wouldn't put myself in the position to feel anything.

I'm so grateful that I am allowing myself to feel joy and walking completely on faith to the journey God has planted my feet on.

JOY COMPLETE JOY....ALLOW YOURSELF TO FEEL AND EMBRACE IT!!

Malcolm's giving heart!!

I had to focus my baby today. He wanted to make sure he was able to particpate in his school's Toy/can food drive. He was so proud that he was able to give. I am so proud of him. He has such a giving heart.
I LOVE YOU MAL!!!!

Women's Empowerment Meeting

I was so excited to be invited to be the keynote speaker at the Women's Empowerment Meeting on Nov 21st, 2010. It was a wonderful meeting for women who are creating their business as well as, women who want to have a business but don't know exactly what steps to take.

Thus, I spoke to the group about staying encouraged, knowing the difference between a business and their purpose. I spoke about how to network with others with the most important key being "listening" not just talking. I gave them information on how to not only have business ideas, but taking that idea and to formulate their business. I enjoyed being among women who understood to create God's promise in your life that one must
"THINK OUTSIDE THE BOX"

It was a wonderful opportunity and it was so important to me to give encouragement to to others. If you have been given a purpose to create don't stop no matter what others say. YOU CAN DO IT!!!!

Sigma Gamma Rho Sorority Inc. Founders Day

Yesterday November 12th my sorority celebrated our founders day. I posted it all over FB, I spoke with my sorority sisters and met many that I hadn't known that I found while online. It was great.

It took me back to Jackson State University where I pledged and I thought about my weight and how I felt so different from everyone else. Yet, even then I failed terribly in hiding my weight issues but I did whatever I could to over compensate in every other area. I was president of my chapter Alpha Tau for three years. I was respected and know for my detail and order in which I handled our sorority business.

I would look at other young women and felt so sad that I couldn't be like them, and be pretty like them but I was pretty in other ways (my performance).

Make sure you notice your kids, friends, nieces, nephews etc while they are away in college or in high school and now even middle school. Notice there self esteem and how they handle what's going on around them.

As I look back on that time I loved my experience at Jackson State and I am so proud to be a Sigma Gamma Rho, and for the first time in my life I'm proud to be me.

Love who you are, where you are and if you see areas you don't like it's time to change your atmosphere and create the environment you want for yourself!!


Love you sorors....EEEYYYIIPPPPPPPPPP!!!!! "Greater Service Greater Progress"

So many wonderful things are happening for me!! I'm so excited about what God is doing in my life. I choose this picture because I love pictures that show roads that never end. No matter what the the weather, how bleak it may look outside the road will continue.

I am experiencing how their is so much more out there for me. Think whats out there for you......

The beauty of rain

Today I woke up to rain and thunderstorms. I immediately thought if I should reconsider what I laid out for my son to wear to school, what I would wear to work, how dark it would be outside, how messy it would be, how it would be hard to see,if I would get wet....and then I stopped and thought about it again.

I corrected my thinking, and considered the wonderful process of growing that would be able to take place, those things that were dirty would become clean,the renewing of the environment.

Look at the rain as an cleansing of your spirit, keep your attitude positive, stay focused, and anticipate your next move. Because it's a wonderful process of God.

The next time it rains see the beauty, not the inconvenience.

Love who you are and what you see!!

I had a moment today and I wanted to share. Lately, I have had alot of people I dont know state how pretty I am. I put it to the side of my thoughts said thank you and moved on. But on the way home from church I could hear the Lord telling me to just take a picture. I did so and when I looked I was surprised at what I saw. I looked free, happy and at peace.
With all I have been through it has taken alot for this feeling to come through. My inner spirit is coming loser and closer to the surface and it feels wonderful. The old me is disappering and I'm so excited about that.

When you are feeling low, think about what you have accomplished and look at yourself and love what you see!!

Fun on the beach!!!

To close summer out I decided to surprise my son with a trip to Florida. I gave him a kiss put him on the school bus and sent him to school on a Friday. What he didn't know, was that all week I waited until he went to sleep and packed our clothes, and made arrangements for our trip. It was special for me because he was turning 10 years old. It has always been my dream to take Malcolm to the beach. So once he was on the bus I drove to the rental car place rented a car and went to pick him up at school by 8:30am. He was shocked to see me it was great!!

We left the school and drove to Florida. We stayed with my sorority sister Shana and the next day drove to Tampa and spent the day at the beach. It was wonderful to watch my son put his feet in the ocean for the first time. He was nervous and a little unsure, but after about 3 minutes he was hooked!! He stayed in the ocean the rest of the day.

We also walked the beach, collected sea shells, talked and walked the pier. It was relaxing and I truly thank God for the opportunity to give him a birthday surprise he will never forget.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MALCOLM!!!

T.O.U.C.H. 52:11 Inc. Newsletter October 2010

Newsletter
“450 pounds to freedom”

The purpose of the T.O.U.C.H. 52:11 Inc. is to educate society on what it feels like to be obese in a society that doesn’t accept individuals for who they are. I speak on my experience of once weighing 450 pounds and all of the challenges I faced as well as, the challenges I faced after loosing over 200 pounds.

The purpose of T.O.U.C.H. 52:11 Inc. is to leave you motivated, encouraged and feeling as though it is possible to take on any weight challenge you may be experiencing. When creating T.O.U.C.H. 52:11 Inc. I was very cautious to make sure it is a safe place in which those suffering from the addiction of obesity can find a source of help not hindrance. I am a life coach and self esteem expert for those who feel as though it’s impossible to loose masses amount of weight. I ask you to join us in the fight to educate ourselves and saving lives through the power of self will and sheer motivation.

When Too Much Exercise Becomes a Problem Compulsive Exercise and Exercise Bulimia
Exercise bulimia is when compulsive exercise becomes more than a desire to get into shape or manage ones weight. Those who suffer use exercise to purge to compensate for eating binges and often work out multiple times per day three or four hours at a time. The difference between compulsive exercise v/s exercise bulimia:
Many use the terms interchangeably they truly are two different things. Compulsive exercises is when individuals build their lives around working out and are genuinely distressed if they can’t exercise as much as they feel they need to (or should be). Exercise bulimia is similar, but involves eating binges. People who suffer from extreme bulimia often binge on food and then exercise obsessively to make up for it. Exercise becomes a way to control calories, justify eating, and punish oneself for eating too much or eating the “wrong” things.
Both conditions are indicated by the following symptoms:

• Choosing to exercise instead of going to work or enjoying social activities with friends or loved ones
• Refusing to take any rest or recovery days, even when injured
• Continuing to exercise even when ill
• Exercising to the point of exhaustion
• Never exercising for fun
• Experiencing severe stress and emotional upset, including depression, if unable to exercise

Associated Health Problems
Exercise is usually a good thing, but rest and recovery are very important, too. Excessive exercise can weaken the body and cause a host of problems, including:
• Fatigue
• Suppressed immune system
• Lack of menstruation (amenorrhea) in women due to a lack of body fat
• Reproductive problems
• Heart problems (such as muscle wasting and rhythm problems)
• Dehydration
• Arthritis
• Osteoporosis
• Stress fractures and sprains

Treatment Options
• Exercise bulimia can be a symptom of a much bigger problem. Studies have fund that suffers come from families where food was used as a way of controlling behavior and battles surrounding food. Treatments include support groups, cognitive behavior therapy, psychotherapy, and or medication such as anti depressants. Remember to allow exercise to serve a purpose in your life-not be the center of it.
To learn more about eating and exercise disorders and receive a referral to a health practitioner in your area, contact the National Eating Disorders Association at: 1-800-931-2237 or visit: www.edap.org.

Contact Info:
Sandra Kelley M.S. Education
Email: touch52eleven@gmail.com
Phone: (262)52TOUCH
Blog: 450poundstofreedom.blogspot.com
You Tube: Up close and Personal with Sandra Kelley (Press control and click below)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Fg0csTd8xQg

What does a Stop Sign mean to you?

This is how I saw an issue in my life that I couldn't face. We all have have things in our life that we try to go around, not address, and play as though it doesn't exist. I am no different. There was something in my life that I tried to remove emotionally for the last four years, yet I wouldn't let it go. I couldn't deal with the emotion, and I couldn't face the truth.

The situation was something that caused such hurt and depression that I never addressed it. It was a straight link to my over eating. To be sure I didn't over eat I would ignore the problem. It was also the elephant in the room, but I ignored it.

The stop sign represents where I am in my life now. My former thought process would have seen this stop sign and I would not have moved any further. But accepting that God has NO limits, I can look past the stop sign and begin to wonder what is beyond, what am I missing, what is out there for me that is waiting on me to explore.

In life if you have a "stop sign" in your life that represents excuses, bad relationships, hurt, pain, addiction whatever it is, make sure you look beyond and allow yourself to wonder what else is out there just for you.

Sometimes the stop sign is there to help you let go of your past so that you can move to your future!!

Holding on to the fire

How do you on to the fire when you are pulled in so many directions?

Well that is the question I am asking myself daily. I know the ministry God has given me. That is to educate society about the world of obesity as well as, encourage those who are going down that journey. I must do all of this while handling day to day life. Between work, working on my second Masters degree and trying to be the best mom I can, I can become stressed. But I bless the Lord that I turn to something positive instead of food when those feelings come. The last six months for me have been a whirlwind but I must keep my inner core calm while watching the tornado swirl around me. T.O.U.C.H. 52:11 Inc. always keeps burning within me. The fire is huge and buring brightly because I know my purpose.

This week think about your purpose. Are you living it? working it? encouraging others with it? or are you allowing your fire to be burned out daily by work, stress, no determination, self doubt?

Remember to always keep your fire buring.

Malcolm and Jasmine

They bring me such joy.

If you are a regular reader of my blog you know that I love my son Malcolm and I wanted to introduce you to my niece Jasmine (my nephew Samuel wasn't there the day they took this picture). I love seeing these two together. They remind me what joy truly is. The laugh, joke with one another and love on each other. I enjoy watching my son be a man, and make sure his cousin has what she needs, buys things for her, holds the door and her hand. It's truly sweet.

I wanted to be sure they are highlighted today as the "superstars for the week".

I ask God to cover them and all the children who are returning to school this week. May they have restful sleep, steady focus and determination. Cover the buses they ride on, the hallways they walk in, and cover the food they eat. Bless the teachers, staff and leadership in their schools and let them take time throughout the day and ask you for wisdom in all they do.

In Jesus, name we pray ....AMEN

Loving Life

There is no time like time with my mom. I have been so busy with work and being mommie myself that it was great to have time with my mom and son at lunch. My life lately has been a world wind. The favor of God is truly all over my home, work, and most of all my attitude. I am in such a good place when it comes to thinking about myself. I truly have a positive self evaluation and I am learning to accept compliments from others without thinking "do they really mean that" or "I don't really look that nice like they said". I am learning to embrace it all and do so with confidence.

I'm so grateful that God has given me this opportunity to start over and in the process help others do the same!!

Enjoying Six Flags without obese worries!!

What are obese worries you ask? terrible sweating, horrible pain in your legs, knees and feet from the walking, shortness of breathe, hungry all the time, feeling depessed and overwhelmed at the sheer length of the park, having to hold everyone up because you have to rest every so many yards.... But that wasn't a worry for me today!

What a fun day we had today at Six Flags. This is spring break for my son and I decided to take him to his favorite place Six Flags. It was such a reminder at how far I have come. First we had to park close to 2 miles from the entrance. The old me would have wanted to merely give up and not even walk to the front. The new me passed by the trolley that was their to pick us up an I walked with pride praising God the entire time that I had the ability to walk without pain. Arriving at the entrance I went through the turn style without getting stuck (which has happen to me in the past).

Once arriving in the park the first thing my son wanted to do was go on the Goliath roller coaster which was at the top of a huge hill. The entire day we walked and walked and walked. It was 80 degrees and we were sweating. But all I could think about was that my skin was bleeding from rubbing of the skin between my legs, and under my breast. At one point I actually stretched my arms out besides me and really felt the slight breeze of the wind. On one of the rides, I actually sat on a bench and waited for my son to ride a ride. While everyone else sat under shade, I purposely sat on a bench in the sun. I love to feel the sun, after so many years of running from it because of the weight.

We even left the park and went back to the car to get something to eat and rest a minute before going back to the park. It seems so much easier to do everything in the park but the fact that I could excited me.

I decided to go on a ride called the Ninja. I haven't been on a roller coaster in over a decade. It was fun and I felt like I was traveling back in time. I also remembered not being able to ride on a roller coaster.

As we left, we were tired and hot but decided to walk back to the car!! We passed up the trolley and just walked and enjoyed the fun of the day.

The day was fun and a blessing to spend time with my son. I am so happy I am able to be that fun mom who can do things with him an not just watch from the side lines.
Thank you God for allowing me to redeem time!!!!

DO YOU WANT TO CHANGE YOUR LIFE FOREVER? PLEASE READ....

Achieving Lifestyle Living can seem so hard to achieve but it is possible. For those of you out there who really want to make a difference in your life and improve your health there is a contest for you!

T.O.U.C.H. 52:11, INC, is having a Lifestyle Living contest. This contest will require you to meet certain criteria.
Please email your name,age,DOB,phone number,weight,state(location),and clothing size. Once received an email will be sent with an attachment on the criteria that is needed.
Office phone: (262)52TOUCH
Email:info@touch5211lifestyleliving.com.

The winner will received free services from me and the ability the change your life forever!!!!

Sandra Kelley M.S. Education

Riverdale speaking engagement

What a wonderful speaking engagement I had today. The women who attended made the most important step to improving their health, they came to the event. Whether they realize the huge step they made or not, the first crucial step to recreating your life is to "simply begin".

I spoke about the issues I went through, the hurt, pain and embarrassment of my past obesity. I spoke about the broken tubs I would cause because of the sheer mass of my weight, how I couldn't wear a seat belt, I had sleep apnea and so forth. The women felt comfortable and were able to ask questions, talk about their issues and what their struggles were.

I gave them helpful hints on improving first their mindset and how to then move onto other areas of their life. It is such a joy to help others see themselves in a more enlighten state. I thank God for the opportunity to share my story and to give back to my community. I will always take the time to reach back with free informational sessions so that those who need assistance are able to receive it. I often think back to when I was 450 pounds, I wanted to have someone to speak to me one on one about their experience and how they were able to do it. I didn't have the funds to reach out to those who were outspoken about their weight lost, so I always promised myself I would help those who needed me yet weren't able to afford my services.

It's important to give back the gift that God gave me, therefore,
lets TOUCH the world together!!!

Movie Days with Malcolm!!!

The last two Fridays have been so much fun with Malcolm. I surprised him and picked him up early from school so that we could go to the movies together. I have been so busy in the last two weeks but Malcolm has done so well in school so I wanted to reward him.

He has fell in love with reading and he loves the Wimpy Kid series, and How to train a dragon is a movie we agreed we would go see.

It felt wonderful to love assignments and pressure behind and spend time with my favorite person....my sweetie pie Malcolm. I love you honey!!!

Question of the day

We will begin our question for the day. This is for all who log in and want to be apart.I would like you to answer honestly and express how you truly feel. The questions' I will pose are to help you deal with all the emotions that are keeping your motivation low, self esteem weak and have lead to weight gain. This blog is to encourage each other and create new avenues for your life.

QUESTION
You are in a realtionship and your partner always talks about your weight in a negative way. How do you handle this? Do you loose weight to make the person you love happy or do you stay the way you are?

Thank you for all of your calls and emails!!

There are no words to express the happiness I have concerning all the comments emailed to me and calls made to my office concerning the MSN article. There were so many people that were helped and blessed by what they read. It was so painful explaining what happened to me during the worst days of my life.

But because I am willing to expose the very issues that caused me to be buried in my own body, others will have the opportunity to live and prosper!!!

If your reading this and you feel as though there is no hope, continue believing and with determination your goals will be achieved.

YOU CAN DO IT because we will TOUCH the world together!!!

If you cant pull up the MSN story let me know

If you arent able to view the story about my weight loss on MSN please let me know and I can email you the link or I am on Face bok and it's on my wall where you can read it.

My email is info@450poundstofreedom.com
Office number (262).52TOUCH

Sandra Kelley M.S. Education

MYWEIGHT LOSS STORY IS ON MSN!!

I AM FEATURED ON MSN!!!!!!!

I can't believe it. I received a message on FB this morning from a young lady I have never met this morning saying that she loved my article on MSN. I said what article. She sent me the link and there is was the story about my life. I'm so happy because I truly want to be a wealth of information for those who are looking for someone to inspire them with their weight lost. I don't want them to be in the dark anymore, or to be alone anymore. I am there to encourage and inspire them to their next level. I'm so excited and amazed at how awesome God is!!!

Please click on the link below and I hope it leads you into movement towards your greatness!!

http://health.msn.com/weight-loss/slideshow.aspx?cp-documentid-100255595&imageindex=6

Preparation is key!!

Today was a long day. I got up at 3:15am to get prepared for 5am prayer at church. I went and it as wonderful I love lifting God's name up in honor of all he has done for me and my son. I stayed around and talked for awhile and by the time I made it back home it was time to take my son to his CRCT testing boot camp at school. We did that and came back home. I had to so some work for my job and I took a much needed nap!! Because of my surgery there are times I become really tired, so naps sometimes are unavoidable, it's one of the small drawbacks of the surgery but I would do it again in a heartbeat.

I have reached out to different arenas to speak concerning my business so that I can help as many as I can concerning their weight. All of this along with closing out the semester for my Masters Degree in Addiction counseling. So I have been busy but I wouldn't have it any other way. There were time I begged God to give me purpose in my life.

Tomorrow will be busy I am teaching Children's church and I will do some more work for my job. Today was a good day and next week will be even better.

Mr. Malcolm Kelley

What a joy my son brings me. I decided to write a entry just about him. He has been out of the hospital for a week from a condition that God healed him from.

I am so grateful what obedience can do. Many don't understand why I constantly make sure Malcolm keeps his attitude right, or why I involve him with my servant hood unto God through our church, or why I closely monitor what he watches on TV and how he speaks to others. It is because I am ensuring he will be a "man" with integrity who loves and fears God.

I love homeschooling him and spending his formative years together with him. I am so proud of the work he does weekly on blog talk radio the T.O.U.C.H. 52:11 show. He speaks every week on healthy tips for children. He makes me laugh and while I am always encouraging others he constantly encourages me. So he deserved the spot light for today.

MOMMIE LOVES YOU MAL!!!

The water in the middle of the drought

I have been so busy ensuring that the foundation for my business it formulated the correct way. It amazing I am surround by people who have their own "business" but very few who are creating them in the correct way. Having ideas about how a business should be run without the correct credentials will come back to haunt you. My Bishop often speaks about creating something for not just you but for generations after you. That it is imperative to leave a "legacy". Thus, I have researched information on non-profit organizations, the difference with registered names versus business that are Incorporated and believe me it is alot of information but I know I can do it. I am walking purely on faith and nothing else.

The picture above shows an example of my everyday walk. The outside is dry, cracked, has no color and seems to be bearing no fruit. But my vision is the water in the drought. It will surpass everything that is around me and will continue to spread. So as I dive into everything that is needed for the foundation of my business I will constantly looked toward that water and look beyond where my eyes can see and follow the eyes of the spirit and see it as Endless!!

My tire Blew Out on the expressway!!!

I couldn't believe it but my tire blew on a busy expressway today. I waited two hours for the tow truck to come, and then had to be towed to get a new tire. I reach the business 10 minutes before they closed!!! Then I had to wait another one 1/2 for them to fix it. I missed the 6pm service at church and wasn't able to do a favor for a friend. It was crazy. Oh I forgot the battery on my phone almost went out!! But I made it safely and my son and I are safe.

The enemy is so mad because this morning I gave him glory for healing my son this week when he had to stay in the hospital. BUT I was alone to hold it together, my stress level wasn't maxed out and the feeling to overeat didn't manifest. I thought about the wonderful things that God is doing for my life. How I wasn't in an accident, how I made it safe and sound.

As my son said, we had pressure but we made it!!

Hanging on

What God has given to me as a vision seems so large, so important for others, so life altering at times I wonder how I will be able to achieve it all. When I saw this picture I thought of my vision. It's huge, but just like the climber I must chip away at it step by step. There will be so many who don't understand and many who feel I should stop putting all of my past about obesity out there for all to hear and to stop telling about the most emabarrsing events in my life.

But I know that telling about my low self esteem, and my low self worth will help save others who can't motivate themselves. I don't want those who have a low impression of themselves because of their weight to give up. They need to know there are people out there who have successfully lost the weight and now enjoy life as never before.

I know for some after loosing masses amounts of weight they never want to revisit their former obese life. But going back to the time in my life that was the hardest is a joy for me because I know others are being blessed by it.

I will continue to climb that mountain, higher and higher until I reach the top. But once I reach the top I won't get comfortable. I will begin yelling from the rooftop about the dangers of obesity and how past hurts and tramua can cause the addiction of obesity to take place.

Whatever your issue is.. depression, weight, drug use, alcholism etc.. keep climbing, keep going until you reach the top.

Once you get there reach down and help others get to the top!!

My Valentine

Here is my true valentine!!!

My son Malcolm called my mother and had her pick him up to go and get my valentines day gift. He went and surprised me with the "This Is It" movie and a beautiful card. He was so excited he was able to do something for me.
I thank God for such a caring, loving and affectionate son. He cares so much about how I feel and wanted to do something nice for me.

I love you Mal!! mommie thanks you so much for all your love!!!

LOVE is mine too

What a wonderful day!!! Valentines the day for love. I have come such a long way. I once hated this holiday. I felt so alone, I felt I would never have anyone to share my day with, no cards, valentine candy or special moments. Even when I was married I never received anything from my ex-husband I didn't think enough of myself to demand respect from him. I felt I was obese and I should just be happy that I was married and if I received anything in return I should be lucky.

Now I love myself!! I am my own valentine and I love to love myself. I realize the more I love me the more I open the door for someone else to love me. I am not alone I am just getting myself prepared for the true love of my life. I AM BEAUTIFUL, I AM WORTH IT. What is in store for me is awesome and true. I'm excited for what God has for me.

So as you see other couples today celebrate them be happy for them. Because what you celebrate in others God will create the same for you.

Happy Valentines Day!!

Wonderment of God!!

Through the stress of the day, and all my issues of life sometimes we think that our problems are major. You need to step away from what is going on in your life and look at the bigger picture. There is so much more that God has done for us. He is so much more massive than we give him credit for. God wants to expand our territory to places we have never been. There is so much more for us to discover. Make yourself aware of the "wonderment" of God. Allow him to move you into places that you never thought you could go.

I never thought that the pain I endured because of my obesity, was truly a source for others. As I speak to groups and consult others I have to continuously put my past on glare for all to see. But as I look at the greater good of God I know I am doing exactly what my purpose is.

The next time the things of life seem to big for you to handle and there seems to be no end in sight, look towards the beauty the Lord has created and understand there is so much more than your seeing. Go search for it.
THE TIME IS NOW!!!

Soaring!!!

The eagle flies alone and high. Yet they have eyes of exactness. My goal is no matter what is going on around me I want to have eyes of complete focus. I want to zero in on what my mission and assignment is and have an eyesight that is like no other.

My vision attaches itself to only those things that are meaningful and purposeful. There is no turning back and I will have the ability to notice only those things that will cause my vision to go forth with clarity and maximum ability.
My ears only hear the sound of the winds speaking to me and the mountains are falling all around me. I am flying high, with nothing there to get in my way.

I'M SOARING!!!

T.O.U.C.H. 52:11 Inspirational CD's

Today was such a joy. I began creating the inspirational CD's for my business T.O.U.C.H. 52:11. It is a labor of love for me because I am fulfilling the vision God has given me. I am blessed to work with Chris Stevens who is assisting me with putting all the background music together.

The CD's that are being produced are Motivational, Encouraging, Focus,and Vision. These CD's are ones you can mediate to, become inspired to increase your self esteem, and learn how to achieve your dreams.

I have a zeal about helping those who will benefit from my minstry. It feels so wonderful to help others. MORE IS TO COME!!

True Friends see your Vision

There are no words for friendship.

It can either be one of fulfillment or one of non purpose. My friendship with Karen has always been one of uplift. She has encouraged me, kept me focused, and shown me the authority I have that I wasn't aware of. It is a friendship in which I learn something everyday.

Karen understands my purpose with my business T.O.U.C.H. 52:11. She knows that the vision God has given me isn't about me but about all of those individuals who feel lost.

So Karen I THANK YOU SO MUCH!! for all you do and for who you are.

There is something behind the darkness!!

The darkness always consumed me. This is how I saw my days when I woke up. Everything was gloomy and sad. I couldn't get through those clouds. I felt as though I would never get to the other side of all that darkness. It kept me from having the ability to know that goodness was coming. Through focus,dedication and encouragement those clouds will eventually move.

Don't let the pain interrupt what you were born to do. Close your eyes and see yourself beyond the clouds, see the sun coming out just for you. Know the wind blows in your direction to speak to you and instruct you. If you are in a state in your life that you are no longer looking up, do so today!!! Those dark clouds can only stay if you allow them to. Push them out of the way and go for what is being hidden which is the treasure within you!!

The Love Of A Mother

What a wonderful time I had with my mother and son last week at lunch. We laughed, talked non-stop and truly enjoyed one another. My mother is such a source of strength for me. She has taught me so many wonderful aspects concerning being a women. She has also been there for me in the worst and best of times.

She never let's me feel sorry for myself, and she never let's me have a pity party. When people see me or hear me at speaking events, they often feel I did it alone, but the truth is her words of stay strong with me don't give up, stay with it, ring true in my mindset.

As I watch her with my son, I see how much he loves her and that she is instilling the same confidence in him. I thank the Lord daily for her wisdom and guidance.

The Love Of a Mother is true, sure and everlasting

Love you mom!!!!!!

Which smile is real?

Loving life and Going forward.
I went to lunch with my mother last week and I snapped the picture in the pink. When I looked at the picture I couldn't believe what I saw. I have pictures of myself stuck in my head of all the pictures I have ever taken. No matter how much I have changed, I still have the old me in my head. In the picture of me in the black, I was struggling to find the new me, the whats next. I was confused and in limbo.

But seeing this picture of myself last week I felt so beautiful!! I was able to take in the structure of my face, the smoothness of my skin and my true smile in the picture.
All of my pictures of me in the past, show me smiling but I felt like I was dying inside. But I could see in this picture that my smile is my happiness on the inside and outside. I feel proud of myself because I know The best is yet to come!!
Don't assume that those smiling are not hurting, search and ask how they are, are they in need of encouragement? Because things are not always as they seem.

So which smile is real? The one of me now, I have complete joy!!